LOVE UNWORTH.

rules

• intro.

  

  private  /  heavily selective  /  canon divergent
  yoosung kim
  of the otome game 
  mystic messenger
  by cheritz

  previously yoosunh
  tracking the tag #heonsa

  eversince 092416
  written by miles.

  rules are expected to be read before any means of interaction!

• ' .✧ laws. ✧ . '

  mun introduction.

  

     HI - HI HELLO HELLO  !   _{i’m shai but i preferred to be called miles ( prev. known as nya! ) now . i’m a 13 year old homo-pan filipino ,  it’s nice to meet you !   i suffer from insomnia & anemia}  ( A FUCKING GREAT MIX I KNOW )  _{so please forgive me for always being tired yet lacking the comfort / ability to sleep well . i also get anxious easily / intimidated so lmao i’m basically a small sheep . but AYE i’ll be happy to be friends with any of you} !  I GO BY ANY PRONOUNS BUT IT.

  
  

  roleplaying.

  01.  I’M HIGHLY SELECTIVE & HIGHLY PRIVATE!   ^{i’m very picky in choosing who to follow} & ^{who to follow back . sorry if this sounds rude but this is for my own sanity} & ^{health . i will most likely} not ^{follow if i don’t know our fandom , friends an exception . i will only interact with} MUTUALS & MUTUALS ONLY  --  NO EXCEPTIONS.  ^{non mutuals are free to follow but please don’t pester me / guilt trip me , thanks.}
  02.  I’M FINE WITH DUPLICATES ^{but am keeping them to a minimum despite anxiety}!
  03.  PERSONALS ARE IMMEDIATELY BLOCKED ^{upon following . personals can} not ^{interact with my posts either , thank you .}
  04.  SPORADIC ACTIVITY .  ^{i’m an on} & ^{off roleplayer} &  ^{am not able to keep a consistent pace when it comes to replying . please forgive me} & ^{NEVER EVER rush me to do replies.}
  05.  IMPULSIVE ROLEPLAYER  .  ^{i tend to drop threads when i am no longer feeling them -- but worry not} !  ^{this doesn’t equal to me not wanting to roleplay with you anymore . i simply do} NOT FEEL MUSE FOR THAT THREAD . 
  06.  CANON DIVERGENCY.  ^{i’ve molded yoosung into a character i’m more comfortable with} & ^{what i see him as rather than chertiz’s canon . if you cannot handle this , then why follow in the first place rather than complain}? ^{i base off the canon yoosung , of course .}
  07. NSFW IS ALRIGHT .  ^{blood , gore & other heavy topics i’m fine about --- BUT NONONONO to smut . i’m underage lol}

  
  

  shipping.

  01. I AM EXCLUSIVE &  EXTREMELY SELECTIVE MULTISHIP  ^{. i will only ship yoosung with muses he has chemistry with . i have a page to state what ships are already taken} & ^{if shipping romantic-wise is still available.}
  02. PLATONIC SHIPS ARE MY SHIT.  ^{please please} please;  ^{they’re just as important as romantic ones .} 
  03. MAINS ARE ALRIGHT ^{yet i do} not ^{do exclusives . over the heart on my theme are the popup for my mains , chck them out}!

  
  

  misc.

  misc.

  01. I WILL TAG ANYTHING ^asked & ^{am trying my best to tag everything as possible . however , my personal tags are the following :} LONG POSTS , SELF HARM ( VISUAL ) , DRAMA , VAGUE & THE MC/SEVEN SHIP.  ^{i will tag stuff as}  TRIGGER /  . ^{if you see me miss a tag please don’t hesitate to tell me , off or on anon}! ^{but please be polite about it.}
  02. WHAT’S MINE IS MINE. ^do not ^{take my graphics , headcanons , portrayal or whatever else . the following are the credits for what i used :}

  ^{BACKGROUND : the-everlasting-ash
  HEADER & POPUP BG : mint-053
  ICON : mage-of-art
  THEME BASECODE : agirlingrey
  THEME CODE / ICONS / GRAPHICS : ME
  AUTOPLAY : butterfly waltz ( cello & piano duet )}

  03. ONLY IM ME WHEN YOU NEED TO. _{please don’t IM me frequently . DMS in general tend to make me very anxious for a reason  . thank you!}

  THANK YOU _{for reading these . once read , feel free to}   NOTIFY ME BY WRITING ON MY PAGE  .   ^{i appreciate it highly , thank you .}

• biography.

  

  DEAR GOD HEAVENS ABOVE   has gifted the earth with such a  HEAVENLY  being : the boy of  STARDUST  streaming in his veins  &   FLOWERS   on  his  skin  .  moonlight  &  sunshine  battle  within  his  SMILE  .    he  is  an   ANGEL  WHO’S WINGS ARE TORN ;  AN  APOTHEOSIS  OF  EVERYTHING LOVELY.  

  001. : basics.

  NAME.   —  김유성  // Yoosung  // Yoosung Kim
  GENDER.    — Cis Male  (   He / Him  )
  DATE OF BIRTH.   — 03 / 12 / ??  (   20  years  of  age  )
  HEIGHT & WEIGHT.   — 171 cm  &  68kg
  ORIENTATION.   —  Greysexual Demiromantic
  OCCUPATION.   — College Student  (  Medicine Major )  //  Barista   //  Veterinarian ( VERSE DEPENDENT )
  AFFILIATION.   —  Rika’s Fundraising Association  //  R.F.A
  

  002. : appearance..

  HAIR.  GOLDEN  BLONDE   as if the sun’s rays were  buried  beneath each & every strand ; although , it is faux . it was CINNAMON BROWN like the beginning of an eclipse.  he is was an eclipse --- hidden  by  the  shadow of others , but now ; he is the sun : shining & mesmerizing.
  EYES.  ORCHID VIOLET  like the last color of the rainbow; although it is not visible . despite shyness , he remains hidden ; but he is still there : he will  always  be.
  SKIN.  IT IS FAR FROM PERFECT  with the impefections scattered around milky white canvas . although , those freckles: they’re seeds: for he is a  BOY WITH FLOWERS GROWING IN HIM.  in his skin , his lungs , his heart , his eyes  & soul. he has the sun in his hair , the moonlight in his smile , the stars in his eyes  &   flowers in his soul : he is the embodiment of  EVERYTHING BEAUTIFUL.

  003. : stats.

  ^{ZODIAC SIGN: Aries | Taurus | Gemini | Cancer | Leo | Virgo | Libra | Scorpio | Sagittarius | Capricorn | Aquarius | PISCES}

  ^{MYERS-BRIGGS: ESFP | ISFP | ESTP | ISTP | ESTJ | ISTJ | ESFJ | ISFJ | ENFJ | INFJ |ENFP | INFP | ENTP | INTP | ENTJ | INTJ}

  ^{FOUR TEMPERAMENTS: SANGUINE | Melancholic | Choleric | Phlegmatic}

  ^{CELTIC ZODIAC: Birch (The Achiever) | Rowan (The Thinker) | Ash (The Enchanter) | Alder (The Trailblazer) | Willow (The Observer) | HAWTHORNE (THE ILLUSIONIST) | Oak (The Stabilizer) | Holly (The Ruler) | Hazel (The Knower) | Vine (The Equalizer) | Ivy (The Survivor) | Reed (The Inquisitor) | Elder (The Seeker)}

  ^{SOUL TYPE: Hunter (7) | Caregiver (12)| Creator (6) | Thinker (8) | HELPER (17) | Educator (4) | Performer (9) | Leader (5) | Spiritualist (13)}

  ^{ALIGNMENT: LAWFUL GOOD | Good | Neutral Good | Chaotic Good | Lawful Neutral | True Neutral | Chaotic Neutral | Lawful Evil | Neutral Evil | Chaotic Evil}
  

  ^{DARK TRIAD: PSYCHOPATHY | Machiavellianism | Narcissism} 

  ^{THE ANIMAL IN YOU: Lion | Tiger | Dolphin | Bear | Wild Cat | Fox | Weasel | Badger | Dog | Otter  | Wolf | Sea Lion | Wild Dog | Walrus | Gorilla | Deer | Rhinoceros | Hippo | Sable | Horse | Sheep | MOUNTAIN GOAT | Warthog | Zebra | Baboon | Elephant | Bison | Giraffe | Cottontail | Mole | Bat | Porcupine | Beaver | Prairie Dog | Shrew | Mouse | Eagle | Rooster | Owl | Swan | Peacock | Vulture | Penguin | Crocodile | Snake | Rabbit}

  ^{LIFE PATH NUMBER: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 11 | 22}

  ^{ROSENBERG SELF ESTEEM SCALE: 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 | 19 | 20 | 21 | 22 | 23 | 24 | 25 | 26 | 27 | 28 | 29 | 30}

  ^{BRAIN LATERALIZATION TEST: LEFT ( 56% ) | RIGHT ( 44% )}

  003. : behavior.

       YOOSUNG IS SAID TO BE  a beautiful boy . he’s timid , innocent , kind & the description of  PURITY . although with such positive traits , he is also extremely  gullible , naive , clueless , oblivious & too good for his own kind . he is said to be an ANGEL thrown down unto the earth of this sinful , sinful world in the form of a shooting star . though he’s been through roads of misfortunes & whatnot , he still continues to be as RADIANT as he is. for this broken , porcelain figure is not weak : he is strong . he can still breath . he can survive.  that’s what He told him. 

  HE IS A BEAUTIFUL MISTAKE TRAPPED IN AN ENIGMA.
  BUT PERHAPS THERE’S BEAUTY LYING IN DESTRUCTION .

       STARDUST is what he breathes & exhales . despite being happy - go - lucky or whatsoever , he tends to see every little thing as beautiful. no matter how broken or in shambles one must be , he believes that no one in this world is of PURE EVIL. be it his mother or anyone else. he’d exhale them , a form of SHOWING others that these things truly are beautiful.

     SUNLIGHT / THE MOON’S BEAMS are whats buried in his smile ; as if a sanctuary . his smile is radiant & made out of utter innocence , beautiful & exquisite in it’s own way . 

     STARS is what’s cradling in those eyes of his. not just that -- an entire galaxy made up of the  stardust he has breathed in . every time he cries--- a  star dies . for they escape from his eyes ; that’s why his tears are glistening , shining & always falling.

     FLOWERS are the seeds sown in every imperfection he posses.  although he sees them as  UNATTRACTIVE & UNWANTED , they are a beauty in disguise; his imperfections are what make him look so lovely. but one cannot hold too much beauty--- for some had planted their own flowers in his lungs ; &  thus , he can’t breath .

  HE HAS STARDUST IN HIS VEINS  &  THE SUNLIGHT & MOONLIGHT BATTLING
  WITHIN HIS SMILE . STARS ARE BURIED WITHIN HIS EYES OF PURPLE AS FLOWERS
  ADORN EVERY INCH OF HIS SKIN. ‘ YOU’RE A MISTAKE ‘ HIS MOTHER
  HAD ONCE SAID ; BUT WHAT A LOVELY MISTAKE HE HAPPENS TO BE. HE
  IS AN ANGEL GIFTED FROM THE HEAVENS ABOVE ; HE IS A SHOOTING STAR
  FROM THE SKY. MY DARLING LITTLE BOY , YOU ARE THE
  EMBODIMENT OF EVERYTHING BEAUTIFUL.
      

  004. : tale.

  BEGIN?

• Verses

  more info tba.

  

  revolves around the regular verse  //  in game , pre-game included.

  

  revolves around any good end verse  //  most especially when yoosung is a vet  (  but NOT married to MC  )

  

  revolves around any bad end verse  //  esp. one where yoosung is in saeran’s hands.

  

  verse involving any kind of possessive !   /  yandere  !  yoosung .

  

  regular universe applies except yoosung has a part time job in a coffee shop.

  

  verse in where yoosung discovers who/what rika truly is . thus , he’s abashed & completely hurt . he leaves the RFA & cuts anything that reminds him of his cousin  (  reverting hair into original color , dropping out of college  )  .  he is no longer kind / naive / gullible or anything thd old yoosung was.

mains!

first , mains =/= exclusives .  i will still interact with other muses of these characters . however , i will give my priority to them . i will take two per character . if you wish to be one just hit me up in my IM & i’ll see if we can bloom chemistry between them . 

romantic shipping  however is only given to one main despite being EXCLUSIVE MULTISHIP . please respect this , thank you.

other blogs!

i.  you sit across a   star  -  eyed  boy  ; beneath the blanket of stars that bestow upon you like lustrous diamonds   //    &   whenever you glance at him , you wonder if those heavenly bodies also burn within those purple gradients .  &  if he inhales stardust as well . &  he does . he just  doesn’t  know .

 a star glides , running across navy heaven . he smiles .

 ‘  i want to be a shoting star , too .  ‘  he says .  why ?  you ask .

ii.  you sit beside  a  boy  with  sun’s  beams  buried  in  his  hair  .    //    raised above you ; the sun . it’s shining . it’s bright . but when you look beside you , you forgot it exists . because something’s shining much more brighter . much more prettier . 

iii.  you lay against the grazing grass  ;   a  canvas  of  green  ,  adorned  with  a  variety  of  flowers  .  he says he envies all of them . they’re all so beautiful & he wishes he was beautiful too . but you think he’s foolish . you think the mirror lies whenever he looks at it . he says he hates his imperfection . but you see sown upon those flaws were seeds ---  those seeds grow flowers .

iv. you want to paint his face  across  the  sky  . you want to make a constellation out of his image . paint his face upon the heavens & everyone will forget about the garnish sun . the unfortunate stars will now shine in shame for there’s something more prettier than them . the flowers will be blessed to be graced upon such a lovely image then . 

v. but it appears that angels cry too  &   here’s  one  weeping  before  you  .  he’s weak against the cold floor as his hand reaches out to you . apparently , angels hurt . angels feel pain . angels weep , angels cry , angels cry & seeing one doing so hurts . there’s a weak smile on his face as he asks you a question .

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            on a snowy day on the third of may  ;   a bright light glides throughout the winter sky . a baby’s cry is heard underneath the ivory - kissed blanket  &  here our story begins.

   ‘ you’ll give birth to a beautiful , beautiful baby boy!  ‘ the fortune teller predicts days before , bright smile on wrinkled lips . the female , however ,  frowned .  she didn’t want a baby . she wanted it gone ,  dead ,  gone gone gone .  it was unwanted , a  slip up  from her little ‘ fun time ‘ with a boy who didn’t even bother to return .  & now here she lies , stuck with a child she didn’t wish to have . in various of ways she tried to kill the being growing inside of her . fall off the stairs . drink pills , alcohol . tire yourself out , anything for it’s chances of living to shrink. but yet , before she could do any of those , her sister ceased her : ‘ don’t . ‘ she says , ‘  what a waste of beauty you’ll do . ‘ 

  &  reluctantly , she didn’t . so on the third of may came out a beautiful baby boy .  mother refuses to name her son  &  lets her sister take the privilege . ‘ yoosung ‘ , she said , ‘ because it means shooting star , i believe .  &  a shooting star passed by the exact moment he was born .  he’s a gift .  ‘

 a soft cry rings out from the child . ‘ he’s a mistake ‘ his mother had said , ‘ he’s so beautiful , though ‘ his sister contradicts .

  alas ,  this is the prologue of the tale . the beginning of a beautiful mistake .

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      i wish to be like everyone else is what he always asked to the stars . he wishes to fit in , to be loved  &  cherished . especially by his mother . but his wishes cannot come true if she keeps avoiding his gaze . his prayer cannot be accomplished if she keeps ignoring his words / failing to give him recognition . his desire cannot be committed if she doesn’t love him in the first place .

  as a substitute , his auntie was there . she spoiled him endlessly but he always said no , but gladly accepted her love anyway . though he wishes his mother could give the same . that sweet little smile  &  those loving words . that love that she gave him . he wanted that from her but that was the only thing he cannot receive .

  ‘ where’s dad? ‘ he once asked his aunt , voice innocent &  soft . he is the concept of naivety  & epitome of gullibility . in anything , he’d believe for facts is what he lacks . ‘ everyone in my school has a dad . do i have a dad? ‘

  lip - bitten smile is bestowed . ‘ yes ‘ she lies , &  she was the guilty for his obliviousness to grow , ‘ he’s overseas. always very busy . he loves you very much . ‘

  in a father he didn’t have he believed in. 

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      a shining star he was  & they knew this . a good boy he was in class &  the teachers recognize this . however , all compliments fail to paint a smile on lips despite him never able to get this from his mother . ‘a golden star i have’ , he’d say   /  ‘ a perfect score i have ‘, he’d boast  /   ‘ everyone loves me in class , ma  ‘ he’d cry , ‘ everyone but you.  ‘ 

 all came crippling down with mama found a loving husband . he had a dad , a  step - father . he was glad that he did but he was not glad that he was the same . he did not love him for he was not his son . he was an extra in this little family that started to grow , a mistake of a flower that wasn’t supposed to sprout .

 soon came a sister . she was so beautiful , so ,  so  beautiful : hazelnut hair that grew until her back , wondrous smile that sent everyone aback , shining blue eyes that’ll send you in awe , perfect existence that his mother saw .

 she was perfect . she was meant to be here  /  he was imperfect . he was a mistake .

 so why bother ?

 ‘  mama told me you’re just a slip up from a bad boyfriend ‘ she once told him. all words she said next are mute . 

 somehow , somehow , he could feel himself slowly being tugged down by a heavy weight .

 he’s about to fall into an ocean of his tears.

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       he longs for escape  a vagabond he might be but he does not care . he wishes to free himself from this prison of hell , a prison where he was unloved &  a stranger to the house. his mother constantly reminds him on how he was but a slip up  /  wrong doing  / mistake  as she laughs  &  smiles with them . he envies it so much .

  auntie died .  left with him was her cat . another heavy tug was felt on his feet , a tug that was painful .  that tug was felt at a monochromatic day . the rain that poured down like bullets felt like it was draining all the color found in his life . the funeral was sad , almost empty with no one but him mostly . he cried along with the sky , hands covering face as knees sank in the mud of the ground .

 for the next years of his life , he was quiet  &  introverted . he always wishes to the stars but got nothing . he always sent paper airplanes to the sky on 11:11s but got nothing . he counts 9 stars in 9 days but gets nothing . all these lies & telltales he’s believing in for he was desperate for validation /  love but he gets nothing.

 college came. he was kicked out &  he lived alone in a dusty apartment .

  the tug pulls him deeper . he’s drowning.

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    a struck of light he saw as he reached out as he drowns .  it is the light visible you see when you sink into the water deeper . the light , surprisingly , leans in &  reaches for him . the sun has came to bring brightness to his darkness . the sun has came down to rain upon him instead of stormy clouds . the sun came in a form of a beautiful girl with blonde hair & green eyes .

  the sun came down in a form of a girl named rika .  his savior , his light , his sun , his closest star &  his beloved . 

 he’s never met any of his cousins before . were they even considered his cousins though he was a mistake?  he didn’t know what to believe in  now . but rika was kind , smart , beautiful &  all in all the sister he wished he had . she made him laugh , smile , grin  &  all the other thing he wasn’t able to do in a million of years . she gave him the best gift he could ever receive : purpose .

 & thus the angelic being strives to do everything to make her proud . he studied hard , volunteered in many &  learned how to cook for him to help her whenever she needed it . he did everything to return everything she did for him. she was the most important being he ever had in his life . she was his savior .

 & in a small group he was welcomed after .  RFA it was called . there he met several others who , too , were all wounded . the family he wished he had received .

 yes , pain doesn’t last .

 but happiness doesn’t either.

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      she’s gone & he’s a goner .  in the midst of laughs , smiles &  whatnot came the biggest tragedy of all . his shooting star had died . his wish didn’t lied . his sun extinguished & she extinguished herself .  she’s gone .

  purpose is lost . he doesn’t have it anymore . in a void of sadness he fell in for eternity . what’s the point of continuing ?  he didn’t have a source of happiness . a source of light , a source of purpose . he can no longer have motivation to continue .

 in the world of games he drowned himself in . what’s the point of having a brighter future without her ?

 his wishes did not come true , you see . & he doesn’t wish anyone to feel that .

 so , he’d be the shooting star . he’d do everything to make everyone’s wishes come true .

 &  to make her happy . make her  proud .

 the story doesn’t end here .